Search Me, O God, & Know My Heart

Any time I feel the slightest hint of separation from God trying to come and creep in on me... I run. I run to the Bible, I run to my God. Usually I will find myself stumbling upon Psalm 139. I fell in love with this chapter when I began to learn and understand how to have a relationship with God. I would sit alone in my room and begin to weep because in this chapter that I have read time and time again growing up, I began to find my identity in Christ and how He loves me.
I love that David talks to God and tells Him of how much God loves him and knows David. David was secure in his Savior's love for him. I also love the fact that David is aware of God's grace, because even before David acts upon something or before he even speaks... God knows. Which leads  me to my next thought.
Knowing all the thoughts that I think, the words that I say and what I do each day God already knows.

1O LORD, you have searched me and known me! 2You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from afar.
3You search out my path and my lying down
and are acquainted with all my ways.
4Even before a word is on my tongue,
behold, O LORD, you know it altogether.
5You hem me in, behind and before,
and lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high; I cannot attain it.
 
Sometimes I think as Christians we can get so lost on trying to please everyone around us that we forget who we really need to please. And can I just say that I am guilty as charged. Thank God for His grace right? And He actually had the nerve to remind of that! So when I began to have doubt in what I thought God was clearly trying to say I read Psalm 139 and then He lead me to a scripture that brought the doubt in my mind to rest...
 
Romans 15:13
13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Oh how I love the peace of God! I have to trust in God that what He says is good, and I do. So with that being said, I am excited to walk in what God has for me and I may not have things figured out for years to come but I know that what He does have for me in the next year or two is great.